I was unable to lean into the fear, numb to the realities of what I was facing, grappling with the idea of what my body would lose in my upcoming surgery. The only thing I had control of was my emotions and staying in my body so that is what I did. No one to relate to, no one who had the right words to say. There weren’t words because everything was wrong.

more than woman
beyond human
a soul sincere

a traveler seeking
with purpose untold
searching
scouring
in stories unfold

I can’t even begin to explain the isolation of the last two months and what my body has forced from me. I have such an incredible support system, most days I don’t want to talk but on the rare ones that I can get up and get pretty and have a friendly conversation, I know who is awaiting my return from under my blanket cave.